Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Coming to an end

I can't believe it is coming to an end. Everything we have worked for, fought for, prayed for..she is finally going to be here. It is hard to wrap my mind around that. It has been a whole year of our lives that we have devoted to this journey.

As I sit and feel Kamryn moving around inside me I think back to the first time I met T and F. When I entered their home I entered into a relationship that would be like none other I had entered before. I had to trust that God brought us together and that He was going to work all of this out in His perfect plan. I love looking back for that exact reason...to see what He has done in all of this. I look back at all the people I have met, the comments that have been left for me and all of the people who have supported us through all of this and I am in awe. Speechless even at the amount of love that has been shown through all of this. The decision for me to become a surrogate was between Travis and I and yet so many people have stepped up to help us in so many ways. For this, I will be forever grateful. I carried Kamryn but everyone else carried me.

So while this chapter is coming to an end, it is just beginning for T, F and their new addition. I know there will be emotions I am not prepared for nor experienced before but I am so blessed to have the opportunity to watch Kamryn grow and cheer T and F on as they learn their new roles as daddy and mommy. And I will continue to pray for them and for Kamryn and trust that God will continue His work in their lives.

There is so much more to say but the words just aren't right for how I'm feeling. So I will leave you with this...Cheers to an amazing year!

4 comments:

  1. Oh, sweetie pie - I have eagerly read all your blogs, laughed, cried, prayed & rejoiced at the beautiful, amazing, generous, Godly woman, that you have become.

    I will miss your ramblings, as this is a journey that in it's very inception, has shown Christ's love in you, that leaves me in awe.

    I can only imagine that as this chapter ends & the next begins, that it has to be bittersweet for you. Wow, what an incredible gift!

    What an awesome husband, kids & sister-in-love you have to accompany you during this season in your life!

    Blessings to you, your precious family & T & F. The best is yet to come...

    Love you bunches,
    Rosanna :D

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  2. I love this post and this is exactly the way I felt leading up to the days before!!! It's hard for the first weeks after, but when you see the love the 3 of them share, it truly is awe inspiring and God's presence!!! Good luck girl! Charity

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  3. I was holding it together until I came to "I carried Karyn but everyone else carried me". Oh Jo..I am so proud of you and what you have accomplished. Im lucky to have met you, and so very thankful for your friendship. You are an amazing woman and a true rock star. As your journey is coming to an end, T and F's is just beginning. YOU made that happenen. YOU helped to create a family. YOU should be so proud. I love you Johanna!!!

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  4. I don't know you, however you are one amazing woman. God Bless you Jo for being a woman of God and blessing the lives of two wonderful people as well as Kamryn.

    It will be a difficult road to walk but not one you will walk alone. Love and prayers go out to you for all that you have done and the great sacrifice of emotions you have used.

    May God Bless you always and forever

    Donna Brown

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