Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Coming to an end

I can't believe it is coming to an end. Everything we have worked for, fought for, prayed for..she is finally going to be here. It is hard to wrap my mind around that. It has been a whole year of our lives that we have devoted to this journey.

As I sit and feel Kamryn moving around inside me I think back to the first time I met T and F. When I entered their home I entered into a relationship that would be like none other I had entered before. I had to trust that God brought us together and that He was going to work all of this out in His perfect plan. I love looking back for that exact see what He has done in all of this. I look back at all the people I have met, the comments that have been left for me and all of the people who have supported us through all of this and I am in awe. Speechless even at the amount of love that has been shown through all of this. The decision for me to become a surrogate was between Travis and I and yet so many people have stepped up to help us in so many ways. For this, I will be forever grateful. I carried Kamryn but everyone else carried me.

So while this chapter is coming to an end, it is just beginning for T, F and their new addition. I know there will be emotions I am not prepared for nor experienced before but I am so blessed to have the opportunity to watch Kamryn grow and cheer T and F on as they learn their new roles as daddy and mommy. And I will continue to pray for them and for Kamryn and trust that God will continue His work in their lives.

There is so much more to say but the words just aren't right for how I'm feeling. So I will leave you with this...Cheers to an amazing year!

Monday, December 12, 2011

8 more days.. in case anyone else is counting

I was going to wait until tomorrow to post something, because it is on an even week and I would be able to say 1 week to go but I am feeling in a blogger mood right now and I better take advantage. Is that right? A blogger mood? Maybe a blogging mood? Either way, here it is.

Eight more days until we go in after this little lady and bring her into the world. Not exactly how God planned birth to be but with my track record of c-sections it is the safest for myself and Kamryn. So we will enjoy the fact that we get to plan. Kind of... I think it is bad for me to have a date planned. I am very much a procrastinator and I will wait until next Monday to finalize everything. It's my nature to believe I always have more time. And right now I do. I have 8 more days. Eight more days to clean, pack, find sitters for the boys, finish shopping and decorating, go to the grocery store and deliver the rest of the candles that are coming in this week. That's plenty of time. Well, if I really break it down, I tend to have about 3 hours of energy and motivation a day so really I only have 24 hours to get all of that done. Oh well...I still have time.

So as far as the pregnancy, it is going good. Nothing really to report. Kamryn is measuring right on and her heartbeat is strong. She moves around a lot but doesn't keep me up at night. I have had a cold that I can't seem to shake for the past 2 weeks but I think the cough is finally tapering off. That has not been fun but I know the end is near so I am trying to enjoy it. We did have a false alarm that sent me to the hospital but everything was fine and I was just being paranoid. It did scare us all into getting a little more ready. I am enjoying by belly shelf. My bowl of Fruit Loops sits perfectly on my shelf as I shovel the tasty little loops into my mouth. Fruit Loops is my current obsession if you didn't already get that. And yesterday I started cleaning out the maternity clothes from my closet. I know, a little premature but by closet is throwing up clothes and I can barely get in there. Plus I am wearing sweats until I can fit into my old jeans, which I expect to be by Christmas. Ha!! A bit of high expectations, but that is my nature as well. I just want more of an excuse to stay in my sweats.

Well, I think I'm running out of things to ramble about. Hopefully I can post again before Miss Kamryn makes her appearance. I do have things to catch up my big boy turning 5. Now that was a fun pirate party. Until next time...

36 weeks 3 days
(Do I look tired? Because I am. And that blue bra strap keeps ending up in my's the only one that fits)

37 weeks 1 day