Monday, September 21, 2015


One year ago I was recovering from a miscarriage. After 2 failed transfers earlier in the year we had finally gotten a positive blood test and we thought "this is it!" only to see an empty sac on the ultrasound. It was heartbreaking. We took time off to re-group, heal and decide what the next step would be. As I sit here tonight thinking back on the past 8 months I am so blessed and honored that they stuck it out and decided to try again.
This has been an amazing and completely different experience for me. When we looked on the ultrasound monitor and saw twins I didn't know if my body could do it. I had seen so many other women carrying twins end up on bed rest early on in the pregnancy and I thought I would end up there as well.  I warned my IPs not to get their hopes up because I had lost a twin before at 7 weeks. Each milestone came and went with the babies growing bigger and stronger and the excitement grew. With each milestone they felt more comfortable to share their news with a few more people. They were finally able to hope that this could be their chance to be parents. I am a surrogate because I want to give parents that chance. I have no control over what happens; only God is the maker of miracles and I want to be a part of that.
And now, we are just a few short days away from meeting the "twinkies". I am so excited. I'm excited to meet them but I am even more excited to see their parents meet them. Every test, pill, day of nausea, pound gained, stretch mark earned, tear cried and every tough day we walked through to get to delivery day is washed away by the overwhelming joy that comes from seeing intended parents holding their children. I would do it over and over is worth it.
I know there is so much more to say but I just can't put my thoughts together, and I'm tired. Please think of and/or pray for us on Friday. The c-section is at 7:30 am. Also for the days and weeks following as the IPs transition to parenthood and I recover from surgery. We would greatly appreciate it.
So I thought it would be fun to guess the genders and the size of the babies. If you want to play just leave a comment on the blog itself or in the facebook comments where I will be sharing this. It will be interesting to see how close people get. Here is a hint...2 weeks ago at my ultrasound appointment they measured Baby A - 6lb 2oz  Baby B -6lb 6oz

Baby B -Look at that squishy little face

Because we don't know gender or names, I made them a basket of some of my favorite things. 
That book is my favorite "A family begins with a wish"

My last month of pregnancy bump pictures

             34 weeks                    35 weeks

     36 weeks                  37 weeks 

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